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I’ve just lost the one person who was the biggest part of my life for the past 6 years. I lost him as my boyfriend months ago, but now I’ve lost him as a friend. He basically said he doesn’t want me as even a friend anymore. I’ve never felt more alone in the world. I just want to curl up in a ball and leave this world.
I’ve gone through so much in the last 6 years and he was always there for me. He was always my rock through everything. He was the one person in the world I could go to and he’d hold me and tell me everything was going to be alright. And I’ve lost him. I’ve lost my rock.
He was there for me when I lost my grandparents. He was there when my mom got so sick she had to leave work. He was there when my ex-girlfriend wanted to ruin my life. He was there when I graduated from high school and got accepted to Indiana University of Pennsylvania. He was there when I found out I couldn’t stay at IUP. He’s always encouraged me to follow my dreams and I was always there for him as he followed his. But then he left.
We remained friend at first and things were going well, or so I thought. Then, when I truly needed him the most, that’s when he finally pulled away from me. He left me all on my own when I needed a shoulder to cry on the most. I had been date raped by the guy I was seeing at the time and had gotten pregnant. I decided to get rid of it and it was such an emotional time that I needed someone. The person I got was probably my most selfish friend.
I’ve never dealt with what happened to me. I’ve never faced what I did. I’ve buried it deep inside myself hoping it would go away on it’s own and that by working so much, I’d never have time to think about what happened. And when I’m at work that does work. But not now. Not when I’m home, alone, thinking.
I know I may lose a few followers for this because I know not everyone agrees with what I did, but those of you that stay and care, thanks. I hope you realize that you guys do mean a lot to me. I may not mention it as often as I should, but I love the few of you that I’ve had the privilege to get to know. You have become a close group of friends for me and you are people I can trust. Thank you all for being there for me. Through everything.
My friends don’t talk to me and my followers don’t talk to me…No wonder I feel so alone in the world anymore.
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